My family thinks I’m so rebellious and bad but if they actually see what real teenagers do than I AM A SAINT. My only problem is that I go out too much but that doesn’t mean I’m out having sex, partying, or doing drugs. Even if I have friends who does do those things, it doesn’t mean that I’ll be affected by it. I know teenagers are hard to trust, especially in this society, but I wish that they would trust me. I wish that they knew that I’m better than that from what they raised me and to have some kind of faith in me.
“you’ve changed.”
No. Not at all. I’m the exact same Annie I was and always will be. Yeah, people grow old and change their mind but who doesn’t. Everyone has done things they’re not proud of in the past, whether big of small, but does that make me a new person because of my past mistakes? Everyone’s mistakes forms into a better person and that’s what I’m trying to be. I know who I am and I promise you, I’m the exact Annie who believes in the same morals she always had.
I’m constantly doing someone a favor and I’m always here for someone if they need me. I’ll be a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen to and cover up for people who pretend to sleepover my house and then ditch me to sneak out and party or sleep at their boyfriend’s house. I honestly don’t mind covering up and being here but when it all comes down to it, who’s here for me? Am I actually existing to you only when you need a favor from me? People always come to me for advice and favors but do I ever hear a simple “Well, how are you Annie?” or even ATLEAST a Thank You.” which is really all I’m asking for return. People truly are selfish and just care about theirselves all the damn time. When was the last time you thought about how the other person felt? No longer am I letting myself getting taken advantage for and taken granted of.
don’t cha wish your girlfriend was a fat, ugly, anti-social, internet addicted freak like me
(Source: ghoulss, via sleazystyles)
The only person I would ever give my trust to is God. Everyone else just kind of left. I feel as if everyone doesn’t have the time to care for me anymore, and I just put up with it. Why should I spend my time trying to keep this friendship going if you don’t even act like a friend? I’m tired of giving someone my trust, because they’ll end up showing me a reason why I shouldn’t give them my trust in the first place.
My first love. My bestfriend. My other half. My Poopface. Just simply mine. Mine for 2 years and 4 months. I know it’s everyone thinks it’s silly to be “in love” at such a young age, but when it all comes down to it…I can honestly say I truly and genuinely do love him. Not the ideal cheesy love people experience within the first few weeks of a relationship, but the kind of love that will make you do anything and everything you can for them, to protect them. The kind of love that within a heartbeat, you’d choose to grow old with them until now and forever. It’s an amazing feeling to find someone who you can tell all your thoughts, feelings, and deep secrets to and feel so secure with it. He’s the only person to make me feel every emotion possible all at once. I had to stop and think about what to write for a second but not because I don’t know what to say, but theres to much. How do you pour your heart about someone who means more than the world to you? That even if you write 1500 paragraphs, it wouldn’t even cover a quarter of how you actually feel? You just can’t. I can say this with all of the hope in the world that this guy is the one I want for as long as I possibly can and that maybe “forever.” does exist with him. I know for a fact I won’t ever find someone as perfect as him and who will ever treat me well as he does.
Blessed with the best.
I love you, Khan Duy Nguyen.
there’s only so much effort you can actually put forth.
and the rest is on the other person’s willing amount to put in and then you know the answer whether to move on or not. We all deserve better than what we actually receive, the only step is to realize it.
I have just been so frustrated with everyone and everything lately. At the end of each day, I’m left un-motivated and emotionally/physically tired. School is just over-rated and becoming a drag to me and my effort is barely put in. I’m losing my patience and locking everyone out. My insecurities are taking control of me and I just don’t know what I want anymore. My vision of the future and everything I believed in is now a blur.
But know i’m not losing faith because God’s in control. As always.
Noticing all the little imperfections on a person but still thinking they are beautiful is so….. beautiful. I’m sick of society insisting to create a single image of beauty. Perception is what it’s all about. It’s not being perfect that’s most important, it’s being flawed in the most perfect manner. Yes it’s unfortunate that others are more flawed, but why compare? Just get used to who you are.
Nights like these are the nights where I randomly miss you more.
It’s hard going day by day realizing that you’re not here with me and I won’t ever get a chance to see your face anymore. You were the most important man in my life and I never got the chance to say goodbye. I don’t think I should cry anymore because it’s doing no good to me and you, but the pain of missing you is aching. You would want me to smile and move on. It’s so hard to be happy and knowing how can I be happy when you’re no longer here…
But I can’t be selfish.
You were my angel and now it’s was your turn to be God’s.
I’ll always be your little girl.
I love you, Dad.
